Back again and ready to knuckle down!

It's been so long since I posted here, and I've obviously been struggling with the journey as I've gone into hiding. It's been a rough month with a very good friend in NZ dying from motor neurons which resulted in a bit of comfort eating. Brent and I went to NZ for the funeral and I spent most of my time my friend's house where there was a constant flow of tea and cakes every time a visitor arrived...and then I kept the bad eating going when we got back to Sydney.

Officially today I weigh 92.7kg (yesterday was 93.1kg) and I had gained 2.1kg since last week and that was a gain from the week before which was a gain from the week before....get the picture?

But yesterday I had a new lease of life - and got the fight back in me again....I tracked all day, went shopping for low point foods and put the slow cooker on. I'm going for the goal of 85kg by Christmas which was my lowest weight since starting WW. Last week I walked every morning but it's been raining the last 2 mornings, so yesterday I went on the Wii Fit for 30 minutes. So if I keep up the exercise I should make a dent in that goal!

So Christmas and 85kg - here I come!

Ten years ago...

One of my best friends just celebrated her 10th wedding anniversary with her husband (who is also my friend, lol). I was her matron of honour, and we looked at the wedding photos on Saturday night after a lovely roast dinner. But boy oh boy, I look so much younger now than I did 10 years ago because I was carrying so much extra weight at the time.

I remember when I first started losing weight last year, that I was looking forward to the day I could fit the MOH dress I wore for the wedding. And now seeing the photos, I can't believe how far I've come in over a year - and can't believe I just wanted to get into that dress. It's a really good wake up call for me to continue pressing on towards the goal. I don't want to go back to that place of denial and false happiness. I say it was false happiness because I told everyone I was happy about myself - and even convinced myself I was happy with myself. I don't think I actually was all that happy though...amazing how you can fool yourself...

Today at WI I lost 800 gms so I'm happy with that especially with all the cheese I ate over the weekend. I had a few sessions on the Wii Fit, and then went for a big walk on Saturday. One of our family faves is to go across the Harbour Bridge and get corn on the cob at the Rocks Market. We continued on to walk to Darling Harbour, catch the ferry to Luna Park, and then walk back to the car at Kirribilli. We were going to have a ride at Luna Park but each ride was $10 so we turned up our noses in disgust at the price!

So, I'm back under 90 kg - yet again. And am aiming to get to 88kg by the end of the month. I think I can do it easily especially if I keep those wedding photos in my mind. Back onto the Wii Fit for another session.

A great day for a birthday!

I just had to post as it's my birthday today. I normally try to keep as low key as possible about my birthday - some sort of denial thing. But today is quite special as it's the 9th of September 2009, 09/09/09! Cool eh? Wouldn't it be amazing if I was turning 9, or 99? But I'm 44 this year and am not happy that I'm slowly creeping towards 50...argh! I'm hoping to be fitter at 50 than I was when I was 40, and so far so good...

Do you eat your emotions?

Yes, I do. I eat my emotions...I did that this week. It was a big week with 2 Father's Day brekkys that I had organised for the 2 schools I'm chaplain at. They went really well and were successful as far as building community within the schools, and the food was also fantastic. But I admit I was stressed about the catering quantites as the numbers kept going up (which was what we wanted). I was so focussed on getting it right for the brekkys that I neglected shopping for my own family and didn't have the 'right food' in my pantry and fridge for me to eat healthily. So, of course, I got right off track eating anything that was there. Plan for the week - go shopping!

I consider my 1.2kg gain getting off lightly...it could have been a lot worse.

But, we went shopping on Thursday night and bought our family a Nintendo Wii. The package came with a Wii Fit and board, so my goal for the week is to go onto Wii Fit 5 times and spend 30 minutes on the exercises which are quite tough for moi. The muscle strengthening exercises are particularly tough! Press-ups! Abdominals! My arm and tummy muscles are pathetic!

Thank God it's Monday and I have a fresh start....I love Mondays!

2 wins this week..actually 3!

I had 2 wins this week. Today I lost 800 gms, and Joy lost a kilo (yay for Joy), both of which I'm very very happy about. But the best thing about my week was going for a family bike ride. And.....I went up a hill without stopping. And....my bum hurt but didn't kill like it did last time....ages and ages ago. So I think we'll be going on more family outings on bikes. We just need to get Sarah one that fits her - she's grown heaps since the last ride.

Yay, 2 wins!

Oh I nearly forgot...1 more win, I'm back under 90 kg. Woohoo!

Yahoo another kilo down!

Yeah, that's right! Another kilo lost this week. So I'm happy that the scales are going in the right direction again.

We went for a big walk on Saturday across the Sydney Harbour Bridge, through the Rocks market, ate corn cobs (no nuts this time), and continued towards Town Hall Station. Then we caught the train back to the car at Kirribilli.

My darling husband cooked a huge pot of yummy stir fried vegies (to help me stay on track), and so foodwise I've been doing better, although there is heaps of room for improvement still.

This week I weighed-in at 90.1kg, which is a loss of 1kg since last week. I've made it back to a total loss of 30.1kg since April last year when I first started WW.

Week 1 Weigh-In & Bay Walk

Thank you for yor encouragement and lovely comments ladies - I'm feeling the love :).

It was really good to restart last week - I think it was just what I needed to get my head back into a better space. This week was heaps better, and there was still plenty of room for improvement. Tracking started well, and then dropped away by the weekend. So this week, I'm going to track every day and take a notebook around with me - just need to find a notebook!

I went on the Bay Walk on Saturday with 2 great friends of mine, Linda and Jenny. Along the way I noticed it is actually called the Bay Run, lol. We joked that we could run it sometime - well I was really joking, but Jenny could actually be serious. Mmmm, let me think about that a bit more. Jenny's got longer legs than me so she went faster than me, that's my excuse anyway. But we finished it in about 80 minutes which was quite a steady pace. I'm sure the walk saved me from the weekend's BBQs and parties.

I weighed-in this week with 91.1kg which is a 1kg loss after 5 days. I restarted last Wednesday, but I'm going to keep Mondays as my WI day...so I'm happy with that and am hoping to go under 90kg by next Monday.

Starting Afresh Today!

Time to come clean with myself and you all and tell you I've put on 7.1kg since my lowest weight of 85kg. Seems I couldn't maintain 85 kg once I got there, and have slowly crept up in weight over the winter months. But enough is enough!

I reset my WW goals and profile with a restart from today.

So at present - my weight is 92.1 kg and I'm starting afresh from today!
Winter is gone - spring is around the corner!

A day of healthy cooking

There have been nasty bugs in our place this week. This is a family first - to have everyone sick at once! I've been bored silly. So yesterday I was feeling OK enough to cook. And I cooked healthy food.

I made roasted vegies with eggplant, spanish onion, pumpkin, cherry tomatoes, zucchini, garlic, a generous spray of olive oil, a sprinkle of cummin seeds, and seasoned with salt and pepper.

Then I made pumpkin soup. I put too much stock into the pot so had to add some potato to it which was good as the stock was quite salty. So actually it was pumpkin, potato and garlic soup. Yummy but potent! The whole pot came to 17 points.

Then I made diet jelly and stewed apples...

So being at home sick wasn't as detrimental to my eating plan as it could have been as it was all pretty low in points. But, now there are hardly any vegies left in the house. Oh no, what am I going to eat today?

There is a bit of soup left from yesterday....

...3 hours later...which I've eaten...

So now I've made some broccoli, potato and bacon soup. Very yummy too, and only 8 points for the whole pot. How good is that?

Down she goes

Yay! I lost 1.1 kg this week which is great. But I could have lost even more if I'd kept tracking for the whole 7 days. I weighed in at 87.2 kg which is what I weighed back in February, so I'm sort of ticked that progress has been so slow this winter. But from what I've been noticing others saying on the WW community boards and other bloggers; winter has been difficult for many of us.

This morning I walked the kids all the way to school (5 minutes up and 5 minutes back, lol). My inlaws went back to NZ yesterday so maybe there'll be less temptation around. I loved having them here and they are always so helpful around the house - cooking, washing, painting, gardening, babysitting etc...but there are definitely more cakes in the house too.

So now I have no more excuses, no inlaws to buy cakes for, the sun is shining and I can go outside for a walk....and I can track all 7 days instead of five.

My GWEJ (goal weight end of July) is 85 kg, which is my all time lowest since starting WW last year. I am determined and annoyed enough to make it back to 85 kg and beyond!